On Monday morning I went for a gentle cycle ride as a recovery session. Once I’d finished my court hearing and the related admin, I opened my personal email account to see an email from the Registry Office telling me that my civil partnership ceremony with T, due to take place next week, had been cancelled due to Covid-19. It was expected, although I had probably allowed myself a little too much hope that we might go ahead when they had said the previous week that they were restarting notice appointments from the week in which our ceremony was due to take place. If the building was being reopened to the public, then perhaps…? But no. A polite, formulaic email told me this would not be the case. I get it, I really do. Public safety has to be the priority, and if it’s not safe enough to have ceremonies yet, then of course they have to be cancelled. And if the worst that comes out of this pandemic for me is my civil partnership ceremony happening a few months later I will have got off lightly. But it’s still sad. It’s brought back all of the emotions I’d probably not really engaged with about how next week was going to be fun: a ceremony for T and I to confirm our love and commitment to each other, with our parents there, and then a party with our friends and wider family at the weekend. My friend A, a tailor and dressmaker, was going to make me a dress which incorporated lace from my Russian great-grandmother’s wedding dress, in a beautiful fusion of old and new. People I hadn’t seen for far too long, all coming together. (We had, of course, cancelled the party months ago, around the time lockdown started, because it was plain as a pikestaff that gatherings indoors of 100 people simply weren’t going to be happening by late June, but that doesn’t mean that as the date approaches I haven’t felt a little wistful.)
Anyway, that was the context for this week. A bit of a downer.
On Tuesday morning I set off to try and run a 5km time-trial as part of a virtual road relay put on by the British Masters Athletics Federation (running for older folks). I’ll put some blame on the early start, a bit more blame on the humidity, and some further blame on the very high pollen count, but basically it confirmed to me that if your training lacks structure and focus for 3 months, and doesn’t include much faster running where you’re really pushing yourself into the ‘hurt box’, let alone tempo running, you can’t suddenly pull a half-decent 5k out of the bag. I couldn’t even break 21 minutes!
Wednesday morning was another humid, high-pollen day, and my 9 mile steady run was rather hard work. I was also still a bit sad about the ceremony, and cross about letting myself get quite so unfit. My mood lifted a bit later on after a promising proprioception session with my sports masseur over Zoom (I am getting much better at jumping on one leg, even if this has yet to translate into better running!), and it was nice to see some clubmates over Zoom for a general strength and conditioning session that evening.
Thursday morning was the morning I should have scheduled my 5k attempt for. It was cool, slightly drizzly and the pollen count was only medium. I could actually breathe easily during my 5 mile recovery run! Friday was a bit damper and the pollen count was back to high, but it was still a better morning than Tuesday. I did another 5 mile recovery run. I also learned that the London Marathon might be happening in October, or it might not. They’ll tell us in about 5 weeks’ time. So I’d better do some maybe-training for that.
I was conscious that I’d rather let my team-mates down on Tuesday, and so had decided I’d have another crack at a 5km time trial on Saturday morning (the ‘window’ for any time trials was from last Sunday to yesterday). Needless to say, the rain had stopped, the humidity was back and the pollen count was back to very high. I really, really must learn and remember that when a virtual race allows you a fairly generous window in which to run your race, I should check when the pollen count and humidity are going to be low. I know they really affect me. Anyway, all of that meant that I managed a mere 5 second improvement, although I probably started a little cautiously, conscious that my ‘brave’ start on Tuesday (aiming for the 20.30 I thought I could run) had made for a painful last few kilometres. This time around I at least ran my fastest 2 kms last rather than first!
Still, I guess what it has shown me is that I do need to try and do some tempo runs again, even though I really, really, really hate doing them alone. Usually I use races without tapering for them as tempo runs, but of course that is not an option right now. Belyavin’s Race Yourself Fit Programme, which has served me well in the past, has to be re-written. Somehow.
Saturday was a nice day, however, because I did some strength and conditioning with teammates again, after my 5km efforts, and then went to the beautiful Westonbirt Arboretum with T.
I finished the week with a steady 15 miles today, after a rather long lie-in. The pace was better than I feared after my 2 ‘tempo’ efforts this week, but perhaps shows that my legs had recovered rather too well, i.e. I hadn’t managed to get anywhere close to 5km pace. Curiously, that is actually a good thing (as well as being a very frustrating bad thing): if 21-minute 5km pace was really running flat out and leaving my legs sore for a few days pace, the journey I face back to full fitness would be a more daunting one than it already is. If, however, 21-minute 5km pace was the best my body could do because it really isn’t used to working hard at the moment , it just means I’ve done a bit too much steady running of late, and need to rebalance my training, but should make some fitness gains fairly quickly (at least in terms of getting back to being able to run mid-20s 5ks, and perhaps even getting close to 20 minutes: making headway into 19.xx 5k territory will be more of an ask).
So, a bit of a long, rambling post this week. Who would have thought 52 miles would generate so many words?